Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Bring on the rain.......
Have you ever felt like you've been hung out to dry and it keeps raining on you?
Well that's where I'm at right now.
I awoke this morning to thunder, lightening and rain.
I look out my window because I remember my clothes on the line. They are no longer dry.
I'm no longer dry. I feel like those heavy clothes...
My thoughts are heavy. My heart is heavy and I feel as though I just want to crawl under something to get out of the rain.
But I can't. I have to stand. I have to endure the rain yet again and I'm wondering.....
I'm terribly tired. Tired of accepting food. Tired of writing thank you cards yet again.
I'm tired of trying to explain to my children that "no this doesn't happen to everyone".
I'm tired of forgiving people for saying stupid things like...".Cord accidents are because of the mothers blood pressure"..or..."we have put our kids through so much it's so un-fair to them..."
Scott and I are strong we have been through alot together but the rain is still cold and wet.
Trying to make sure the coldness doesn't get to our kids. Trying to stay warm and still walk through the storms of life when your both soaked to the bone.
Having a hope and peace that all things work together for the good of those that love Him.
We lay in bed at night and wonder how God will use this for our good.
Wondering how this will be used on His behalf to bring Him glory and honor.
I will stand in the rain. I will look for shelter, I will pray for the Lord's strength to just do the next thing. (Elizabeth Elliot wrote in one of her books when you don't know what to do 'Just do the next thing'.)
I will remember............
God's love for my family
Empty hands held high.............