The door is leaned up against a corner in my bedroom. A reminder that things
that are built right just get more beautiful with the years.
I pray my marriage gets more beautiful. The rough spots of trying to
work out the logistics of having a large family and having a loving, romantic,
intentional marriage is hard some days. As a wife, I see myself getting older
in the mirror and wonder, "will he always find me attractive?"
Am I the only
one who thinks such things??
Is my love for the Lord growing so that the love for my husband
is growing. Am I kinder and more gentler than I was the day before?
Am I tuning out the world and tuning into my design as
When the day comes and the kids are gone and it's just us again
will I look more beautiful to him then when we started? Will he, the one that
chose me above all others, think I'm more beautiful or after living with
me all these years not be able to see the true beauty because for all
the years I didn't grow in love, I just grew older.
So many times
I didn't search out his favor I searched out my own.
I put him last when I should have put him first.
I didn't laugh at his jokes.
I didn't make love to him because I didn't have time.
I didn't make his favorite meal because it was easier to
make a quick meal for the kids.
I didn't stay up late and listen to his dreams.
I didn't forgive easily.
I forgot to write him letters.
I wanted him to romance me instead of me romancing him.
I didn't make his coffee and bring it to him in bed.
I didn't iron his clothes because I don't iron.
I didn't make his lunch
or make his favorite supper.
or a thousand other things I should have done
that I'm called to do.
I forgot that my job was supposed to be all about him.
Somewhere along the way we forget that we were created for our husbands
and that's what takes away our beauty. Little by little
the world tells us it's about us and we believe.
When I'm around women that have not forgotten the true
art of their beauty, which is to love and respect their husband with all of
their heart, I think to myself, "now, she is a beautiful woman."
and she will get more beautiful with age...
Are you aging well?