Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Joesph's Visa Apt.

Well we found out that Jo's visa appt is not until Oct.23 and 25 this is where his case will be presented to the US visa lady who will determine if he is an orphan and can leave Liberia. So we have a few weeks to get things finished up here.
We have been told that she (the visa lady) is trying to protect every child and to make sure every child is an orphan and not just a Victim of child trafficking. So I do respect her for making sure everything is done right but it's a lot of work for the Acres of Hope staff to make sure everything is done perfectly..

My dad is not doing well. He is mentally not there. The Dr's don't know why. They have him on no medication or anything that would make him act so goofy. He can talk but you can't understand him alot of the time. He thinks that he is in prison and is being accused of stealing 16 million dollars. He REALLY believes this and you can't convince him otherwise.
I can tell him I love him and he says it back and he knows me it seems but you can't really be for-sure...It's so sad to see one of your parents in this shape. He can't even get a drink by himself. He can do nothing. He just lays there and talks to you and I look at him and wonder if he will ever come out of this. My heart just breaks every time I go to see him. I hate seeing him like this. I hate the way the nurses and staff look at him. I hate the way our relationship is and was. It puts me in such a state of confusion over what it is I'm supposed to be doing. I have seen him one time this whole year. On his birthday in March. I have not heard from him since, what am I supposed to be feeling?
I can't stay at the hospital because I have 5 kids and one on the way. But my first response is to go in and try to fix everything. I can't fix this.
I can't fix my dad I have never been able to. What makes me think I can do anything now.
I guess the Jim Beam won. I don't think my dad will be ok. I don't think he can come back from this. He seemed worse today and they are talking of putting a feeding tube in.
Gosh that seems weird to write about my own dad. A feeding tube.

Please just pray for our family. It's tough but I know that God is working all of this together for His glory and my good.



Anonymous said...

Oh Robin.... my heart hurts for you sister! God is watching over you, and him. Love, Denise

Brandi said...

Rob, I am praying. I pray that God may use this time to sort through any emotions or hurt while your dad is still here. That you and your brothers may allow God to do the true healing that only He can. I know your heart aches, keep running to Jesus.

Love you, sweet friend,


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