A phone call.

So Donna called from Acres of Hope. She just wanted me to know that I was not crazy for feeling the way I was now. She said it was normal. We are getting close to travel and my emotions are all over the place. She said alot of things but the one thing that stood out was that when she looked in Joesph's eyes she saw something that you don't see in every kid. He is special. She said he was not complaining and crying and whining he was pleasant. He loves his mama and his daddy. She said they were extraordinary and that this is the best case you could ever hope for in an adoption because he has been loved and cared for and he will miss his parents but it will be easier for him to love us because of the care he has received from them. Gosh, I have to tell you it's hard.
Meeting them will be a pleasure. Can I bring them home with us also? She told me how his hair was so soft and had hints of golden blonde intertwined with the dark. She said he was soo cute.She try ed to hold him but he wouldn't leave his mom.
We did not get an up date on his health as of yet. Please continue to pray for his health...They are meeting tomorrow and we should know alot more by Monday morning.
She said you will for sure travel in October but I can't give you a solid date but we should know more Monday.
Well I'll close for now, I'll write more as I find out.

my hearts in Liberia right now,
Rob

Up and down we go....

I'm back sorry for not writing much lately. I have been very busy trying
to get all of our things together so that we can bring Joesph home.
This road is such an emotional roller coaster. One day I say OK I'm not going to
let it consume me. God knows whats going on and I don't have to stay on the clock
twenty four seven. The next moment it seems like I'm going crazy worrying about
Joesph and my shots or my I600a. I have so many things on my mind I can't calm
myself it seems at times. I keep thinking OK this is all happening and everything
is going to be OK. It's just that adoption is such a leap of faith. You have so many
unknowns. You have so many questions about your new child and no-one can answer those
questions for you. You have to find them out on your own as you get to know your new
child. This week I have had shots typhoid fever pills malaria pills and running around trying to get my visa sent off and knowing that the end result will be this child called Joesph who will live with us, eat with us, share a life with us..It will all be worth it. I don't expect him to be this perfect child or even like me at the beginning very much but I do hope he grows to trust me and love me as his mama.I hope more than anything that Joesph has a sense of humor. I hope he can laugh easily and often. I hope he is well soon. I hope his surgery will be a success and he can live a great life with no sickness. But it wont be a perfect life. He will still have hard-ships to over come as we all do. But he will not be alone.

Can I get a high five ...

Today was very productive. We got our shots got our malaria pills and our pass-port
pictures for our visas. The Best news of all though is that INS will expedite our I600a approval so we will be travel ready.....:)
I can't believe all of this got done today.....
No evil side effects from the shots....The yellow fever shot didn't even hurt.
So anyway, just keep praying for us as we try to get everything together on this end.

much love and many blessings,
Robin

shots visa's and pass-ports....

We found out that Joesph's been in the hospital for two weeks.
She said that Patty was working on getting his pass-port now and for
me to be ready to travel.
We still don't know when but she wanted me to be
ready when they found out.So on Monday I have to go
get shots and do the visa things and she said go ahead
and have yours and Jo's bags packed so when I call you
you will just be able to book a ticket and travel.
I have to be honest here. I'm nervous about going to Africa.

I'm nervous about being Joesph's mom. I have huge shoes to
try and fill and I don't think he's going to buy that I'm his mom
right away. He seems determined to make sure she is still around.
Around she is too, taking care of him while he is in the hospital.
She has such devotion for Joesph. It's amazing to me what she must
be going through.She has left him two times and he has gotten sick both
times and she has come back to nurse him back to health both times. She
is determined as well to make sure he gets to the United States for surgery..
I pray I get to meet this incredible woman whose son I will be raising..
Her devotion will be passed down to him and I hope through the years that he
will know how much she did for him and at what cost she gave.She gave it all..


Pray for me because I'm a BIG baby about shots and I have to get three......UGH..

Write more as I find out.

Robin

Good or Bad I will hold fast in his promises.

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him."
Hebrews 10:35-38

Today we found out that Joesph is in the hospital. We also found out that his mom
is the one taking care of him.
My heart wants to be there but I'm thankful that she is there holding him and comforting him. Things I know he would not or could not let me do right now because he does not know me.She knows his adoption is finalized and yet she will see this through till the end. I'm so thankful he has a mother who truly loves him and is willing to put her own needs aside for the needs of our baby Jo.
I will not let my confidence sway. My faith is in Christ. Good or Bad I will worship him and know that he has us in the palm of his hand.
Please say a prayer for Joesph. He gets really sick because of his heart problem and it's very dangerous.

Waiting in his waiting room,
Robin

Saying Goodbye...

Some friends of ours lost their baby yesterday. She was seven months pregnant and
had not felt the baby move..She went to the hospital and the baby had died.
She had a c-section yesterday morning.They never find out what they are having so as
to have a surprise. Well their surprise yesterday was a baby boy whom they named Zion.
Good bye baby Zion.
We never got to meet you but
somehow we will never forget you.
Your tiny body we wont get to hold and
fuss over in church. A empty place on the
pew your supposed to be at will not be filled.
Watching your mommy nurse you and cuddle you and
smile her sweet smile of love and acceptance of you
will be replaced with your parents missing you so much.
Your mom was so beautiful through out your time here on earth
and she was so happy to be carrying you. She glowed with anticipation
of your arrival. Baby Zion good-bye for now but know that one day your daddy
and mommy will see you again and you will get to meet your wonderful brothers and
sisters. Baby Zion born into God's Kingdom...................September 19th,2007

Why not live a inconvient life?

Why is it we think we should have this perfect life with no hard ships.?
Why when others are going through such a hard time do we think that we don't
want the incovenience of helping others in need or holding the hand of someone
who is hurting.Why do we look over special needs children because they might interfere
in our life? They might Cause us to much hardship or work? Too much of a burden for our family. We want the easiest life possible.
May God forgive us for not making life easier for others and only worrying about our
on comfort.May he continue to bring families to help special needs children.

2 Corinthians 8:13-15 (Contemporary English Version)

I am not trying to make life easier for others by making life harder for you. But it is only fair for you to share with them when you have so much, and they have so little. Later, when they have more than enough, and you are in need, they can share with you. Then everyone will have a fair share, just as the Scriptures say, "Those who gathered too much had nothing left. Those who gathered only a little had all they needed."

Our trip Dove shooting.........

God's Dryer!

Ok so Im not sure why but on this adoption journey every major applicance has gone
out..The lastest being my dryer. I hung up 4 clothes lines on my screened in back porch.God has been so meriful to me and dryed all my clothes for the past 3 days.
There is something about your clothes being lined up and blowing in the wind...
I love the way they smell. I love the old fashionedness of it.....
I will count it all joy.!!Can't you see me smile..