Monday, March 31, 2008

I was doing bible with the kids this morning and our verse for the day was
Psalms 1-4.

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of ungodly,
nor stands in the path of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of the scornful;
But his delight is in the law of the Lord,
And in His law he meditates day and night.
He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.

The verse that stuck out to me is the part where it says He shall be like a tree
planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season.

I feel like this is the season where I'm supposed to be producing some fruit.
I don't like it tho. It hurts and it's not what I want to be doing.
I keep singing that song I need the every hour. I feel like I take it literally hour by hour. I can be doing great one minute and the next I'm crying.I'm so tierd yet I didn't want to take a nap today because I have been taking naps for the past 18 weeks and I don't want to do anything that I was doing before..
Scott went back to work and the house slowed way down and I had so much more time to
feel my feelings and to let it sink in.Gosh it feels as though someone kicked me in the stomach when I wasn't looking and than just ran off and left you standing there
wondering why..


mommyofmany said...


I just want you to know that even people you don't know are praying for you and your family right now. I, too, have experienced a later miscarriage. It's something I wouldn't wish on anyone. At the same time, it was one of the biggest times of growth in my life. God was faithful to walk me through it. He understood my pain and my grief. I kept focusing on these words from a song: "When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart." I didn't understand why God would allow such a thing in my life, but I knew without a doubt He had purpose in it. May you feel God's loving arms around you as you walk this path. Love and blessings, Sandy

Brandi said...


just reading that makes me feel punched. .I hate that you are hurting so deeply. Know that I ache with you, love you and am praying for you. I have confidence that the Lord will use this in mighty ways to change you. . HE will not let this time slide by unused. I love you so much and am so very thankful for your friendship.



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